HAPPY THANKSGIVING! In such a better place!! If you knew me in "real" life you would never guess that I ever have issues with being happy. I am the happiest person that most people know, but I am human and am allowed to have my sad moments, right?
I feel really good about things. I always do. I just have a hard time with how things are with Justin and I, but I think with time I will be able to walk away from him for good. It will help when he is back in texas for work and I don't have to be close to him. I dunno. Its hard to explain. And there's nothing that hurts more when you finally realized you aren't wanted by the person you want. He doesn't want me. He can say he does, but he doesn't. And I am sure of it now. It just sucks cause the only other person I cared for besides justin just got a gf. He has been my friend since the first month of college and he has always loved me. He has tried so hard to be with me but I always ignored him..for who? JUSTIN. DAMMIT. I am so angry at myself. When justin would make me cry I would go to him and he would hold me and listen to me talk.
:( Why did I mess that up? I guess all I can do is hope and pray that him and his gf break up. Is that bad of me? lol. Ugh. I can hope. >.>
I am out!
I feel really good about things. I always do. I just have a hard time with how things are with Justin and I, but I think with time I will be able to walk away from him for good. It will help when he is back in texas for work and I don't have to be close to him. I dunno. Its hard to explain. And there's nothing that hurts more when you finally realized you aren't wanted by the person you want. He doesn't want me. He can say he does, but he doesn't. And I am sure of it now. It just sucks cause the only other person I cared for besides justin just got a gf. He has been my friend since the first month of college and he has always loved me. He has tried so hard to be with me but I always ignored him..for who? JUSTIN. DAMMIT. I am so angry at myself. When justin would make me cry I would go to him and he would hold me and listen to me talk.
:( Why did I mess that up? I guess all I can do is hope and pray that him and his gf break up. Is that bad of me? lol. Ugh. I can hope. >.>
I am out!
posted by TrixiePixieDixie at
12:06 AM
1 Comments:
Sad moments are always painful but without them, the happy ones would not be so sweet! I feel sorry for people who have always had everything because they can never appreciate how lucky they are.
To be honest, i feel you have to stop using your feels for justin as a crutch, you can be happy on your own Sarah. Only you can determine your own happiness. Just accept it as a chapter in your life that was wonderful and special, and choose to close that door if that is what you truly want?
You are not wrong for wanting to break up this other guy's relationship, unless you cause it wich i am sure you could if you tried.
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